yaw wassup??
blog has been dead fer quite some tym aites...
but todae at this moment i just felt lyk blogging...
noe y??
bcos of my chnge n feelngs..

ppl..i hve chnged...alot,i mean...
tears of joy,tears of despair,tears of disappointment cn't be differentiate by all...
im sensitive,superb sensitive,maeb i should...
realii should...im sick of ppl being sensitive to miie...
n i guess it's tym fer miie too...
i dun wan too..
but it comes naturally...
i dun wan to socialise with ppl..im afraid..im phobia...
im sick of all the things happen thruout the week...
it happens in ablink of an eye...
it's rather sick to noe evryting...
im not prepared...
i wonder is tis the tym fer miie to chnge...???
to b bad??worse???
tere's owaes a reason behind evryting...
eversince tt nyt,i was afraid...
i nid a tymout..
i just felt to be alone...
realii i want to...
i dun chnge onlii to ue ppl,my frens...
but it oso applies to najib...
i chnged but he dun wan to sae it out...
i knew my chnge,i realise it all...
i dun want to make mistakes in my lyf ever again...
tt's the truth...
my wish now is to have tym to myself...
for hym as i noe im safe with hym...
even we hav probs,it's just btwn us...n it wun dwell tt long...
my wish,again.is to find a job...
to fill up my space...in order fer miie not to get bored...
lastly,to onlii socialise with ppl hu noes how to APPRECIATE my presence in their lyf...
n tey r my gfs especially zura...
texting ppl,calling ppl is not in my dictionary as fer now...
call miie arrogant n i dun care...
cos ue noe y???
im afraid whtever has happened,happen again...
i love to be alone...im comfortable with the presence of my family now...
i realise tt i hav abandoned them enuf...
n tt when i spend tym with them,they r whom hu understands miie deeply...
especially mom..
he noes im hvg a hard tym altho i reacted normally...
i love her soo much...
i noe im a grownup now n mistakes are not gg to b made again...
a lil wrong word frm anyone's mouth can poison evryone's mind...
n tt is wht im afraid of...
especially to my gfs...
i noe tey noe wht i have xperienced in the past...
to lose frens,close frens...
to cry over them,n to try to get baq with them isn't ez...
i failed...i was let down without miie doing any mistakes...
so do ue tink im being appreciated...
i do now as fer my gfs...i love them lots...
but not fer certain ppl...
i m not the saleha...
n to those hu have hurt n im being too sensitive,my thousand apologies...
i m sux nowadays...