Call me Siti,Saleha.Leha Or Kechiq
Turning 18 this year
Pursuing Studies in ITE Bishan
Hate me n I WUN give it a damn!
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Thursday, April 30, 20098:33 PM
greetings evrybody..=)) school have been great??uhh..sort of... but a bad dae i should conclude.. my mind wasn't in this world... it was just somewhere else... i kept tinking of hym,hym n her... i mean wth!?ue wouldn't undrstnd this shit aites? haha!!onlii tt minority would understnd... lyf is becoming worse as daes past.. kept tinking of all the bullshits tt happen in my lyf... one after another... it's just part n parcel of lyf maeb..uuh... loved n being loved then next hurt.. it's a normal thing isn't it? sometyms i just wonder whether i deserved all these..maeb...ermm.. anywae,i cn't the picture of them out of my mind... i swear it hurts...trying to distract myself by mkg myself bz... but it doesn't werk..cos they owaes came..uurghx!! n for the another person,i dunnoe whether he is realii sincere.. hais...im not even confident with evrytg now... im gg to find a wae out...a wae out not to hurt myself again.. zura told miie this "lau ko nakk regain alek syg ko kat dier,ko kene cntct dier.." should i?y must i owaes be the one hu hv to make the first move.. anywae,i'll try..uurghx.. bad3! missing my gfs soo much...need them..need the laughter n all...onlii them hu can cheer miie up=)) my dear gfs,we r soo gg to meet up soon aites... LOVE ISN'T JUST WORDS!LOVE IS ABT FEELINGS!LOVE IS ABT ACCEPTING TT SOMEONE FER HU THEY R!LOVE ISN'T JUST ABOUT HAPPINESS!FIND THE LOVE N APPRECIATE IT TO THE FULLEST..! a fren of mine told this to miie to just now when toking abt her bf...a sentence tt makes miiie shocked n rather reminds miie somethng..hais.. "aku rela g kat org yg syg aku lebe dr org yg takd perasaan kat aku langsong...sbb biler aku tau dier sygkann aku,aku tau dier akn jager n appreciate ku...n niie akan bt aku lebe sygkann dier.." erm...................... Labels: bullshits... |
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just fer you...
Wednesday, April 29, 20098:12 PM
Once,on one of the nights
ue had made a big mistake.. to tell miie abt ur feelings... the night ue make miie smile.. the night ue made me shed tears of joy... the night when hopes fer ue came... the 1 minute tt i spared ue... vanished in just daes or rather weeks.. ue called miie dear,ue called miie syg.. i tot ue meant ur words but it's all meaningless... when ue look at miie n tell miie tt ue love miie... it was the moment tt i felt i was being loved... the moment when i tot i had nvr made a mistake loving ue, tot ue were sincere n true to your words.. tt was once in my life... the warm embrace of ur body when ue hug miie was realii different.. the kiss tt ue gave realii made miie loved ue more.. ue r different.. different from the rest tt i knew... i tot ue realii r... i tot ue r the one hum will cheer miie up after all the downs tt i had gone thru.. the one tt im searching fer... ue send sparkles in my eyes... ue made miie crazy over ue.. ue made miie tink of nuting but ue... onlii ue...ue made miie tok abt nuting but ue.. ue drive miie crazy...realii crazy.. as daes past,im afraid as im loving ue more.. ue closed the door fer 'hym'.. n ue open it up fer urself.. it wasn't ur fault at all...but ue gave miie hopes... hopes tt ue noe will be vanished at a later tym.. why must all this happen when im sincere? ue have the rights fer hum ue want to go to..for whom ue want to love... love isn't a matter of words... but it's smethg involving 2 souls... we r young...young enuf fer us to get in serious rltnship... or rather too young to think of love...but to miie,it's tym to get serious... wht's the point of us saying the ILY when ue mean nuting... unfortunately enuf,ue get the rong girl... im a girl who will take all this seriously... altho im young,i dun tink it's a reason fer us to fool arnd with other feelings... NOW,i knew tt it was all a history...im not meant fer ue..im not one of those hum ue wan... ue love her...ue like her... ue mean nuting of your words towrds miie...but I DO!REALII DO! Dear You, thx fer entering my lyf altho it was just fer the meantym...ue have treated miie realii well...ue..ue have been a great person to miie...ue..kater2 yg ue pena lemparkann kat i dulu,buang la jao2..anggap tu sumer takk perna ue lafazkann...kiter takk perna adr aper2 perasaan..cumer syg sbg kwn...ue...jgn saketkann ati ppn lagy keas?perit tau ue...sebak ati i tiap kali i fikir psl niie...tiap kali i cuber tok luperkann ue n cuber tok amek the fact,tiap kalii tu i raser sgt2 luhh saket ati..i mrh,i geram kat ue...tak slh ue sbb ue terburu2..walaupun ue terburu2,ue kene pk knaper ue kater tu sumer..naper ue kater tu sumer sdgkan ppn dlm ati ue is someone else... airmater i tak boleh disamerkann ngn saket ati i..i tak dendam ue n i tak benci ue...i maseh sygkann ue...n i perlukann mase tok luperkann ue...i menyesal bilang ue perasaan i yg ikhlas ngn jujo...silap i tok bilang ue walaupun i i sedar diri i yg sdh berpunya...tp i tau perasaan i n i takk nafikan yg i syg ue sgt2...tp biler syg tu maken mendlm,i terpakser angkat kaki tok kebahagiaan ue...mungkin niie sumer 1 pengajaran bg kiter...ue...tkd aper yg i nak kater pat ue cumer i doakan kebahagiaan ue n maafkann i sbb i da byk sshkann ue...syg i pat ue lom pudar walaupun siket...ue..ue tkmo menyesal dgn aper keputusan ue keas?i syg ue sgt2,i tak akn tglkann sisi ue..takk perna ader niat ponn nakk tglkann ue..ue..i'll be happy to see ue happy...im not gg to touch on this matter ever again...ue...maafkann i sbb sygkann ue..my last word.. (( bie..I love ue soo much tt i need some tym to forget ue..im sorry fer all the troubles tt i've caused..dun tink abt miie aites dear?pergi kat si dia yg ue idam2kann...take evrytg slowly..ue must2 not give up...hurt no1 no more..take miie as the last gerl ue did this to...ue takk pena luput dlm ingatan i walaupun sejenakk...i sygkn ue sgt2...i maseh sygkann ue...i dun want to see ue hurt...i miss you...ur hugs n ur kisses r being missed alot...the wae ue talked,ur laughter,ur jokes n ur evryting is missed by miie...='(..just rmmber im owaes here with ue no matter wht happens...i will owaes be here by ur side...my suppport is with ue owaes...dun trouble urself n cheer up..im soriie fer evrytg tt happens)) Love, Saleha.. Labels: hurt miie n im sorry='( |
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Monday, April 27, 20091:46 AM
listening to you toking abt her is rather hurtful..
but i won't be that selfish aites.. i would be happy if ue r.. n yar.. dun ue tink im over ue... no point crying eventho it had been nyts tt i did that.. i noe im not good enuf for ue.. anywae,thnx..uurghx! N to you, giving ue the other chance.. please dun make use of it.. i hurt ue,ue hurt miie more.. im gg to open up my heart fer ue baq if possible.. lyk ue,i dun even noe whether ily or not.. cos my door is open fer someone hu wouldn't be mine.. n i m gg to open baq my heart for ue..i'll try.. thx peepos... zura i noe it is totally disagreeable to open up my heart baq fer hym but wht to do.. ue noe wht i mean.. but im not gonne give up on tt someone... no regrets at a later tym as ue sae..=)) Labels: if onlii ue noe how i feel='( |
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