heya!
wer should i start first??oryt...
begin with yesterdae night...hees...
went to slack with zura n itah at their void deck...
right...i was so fuckd up with debab n adk tmbhkan lagy kemrhan ku..thx ehk...
since i cn't take it,i went out...
at least it helps miie...toked to them over wht happen...
aku selitkann siket uhh ehk..
i dunnoe whether what i did fer hym is worthwhile...
realii..i dun find myself still in his heart..='(
TWO consecutive daes he promised miie to cal...
but he didn't...i dun mind...
wht makes miie so pissed off was tht it seems so hard fer hym to pickup my cal n rply my msgs...
sedih tau takk..
biler dpt cal,wht did i get?
VULGARITIES!!
grr...ouhkeas..n then did chat with zura,itah n iqah over the phone after i get home..
itah n iqah r olso facing probs...
guys2...uurghx...anywae loves..must be strong...
itah...let him go now aites rather than later which will be too hard fer ue..
i realii dun wish to see my loved ones to make a mistake like i do..
never..
i realii m lazy to type in detailed...
so tht's it fer yest..

Today was supposed to meet zura n itah at hg station at 720am...
wtf!?siang giler kann?
but we r afraid we'll be late since we r gg to take the circle line fer the first tym..
n zura ko dtg lmbt chicken!!n aku dtg siang!!
haha..tu ponn bb aku tkley tido..wakaka!
n so we proceed when evryone of us hav rchd...
i swear we r jakon..
especially miie luhh...
haha!!escalator nakk g circle line da luhh lembap...so we walkd...
then the escalator which is gg towards the circle line os slow...
n my dear fren of mine zura went like
"ehk giler per escalator pelan siots"..
haha...i takk bunyi ehk...
i ran n jump on the escalator n it went fast...
n "laju ehh niie escalator!!!"
tu uhh tu pntt ckp after seeing the escalator..
n itah was laughg at our reaction...
n went we rh at the platform i realii went to see evry corner the length of the mrt...
3 cabins onlii n guess it's fixed...
n zura laughd looking at my jakon reaction..
dier step takk jakon...mate rtgk2 evry sgl part of the station..
bacin btol!!
haha!!n2 the train was superb....tp tkd difference with the rest of the othr train actualii..
n2 we rchd bishan at 740...
n part tu tiga2 kecoh..

zura: kecoh ehh!!aru 740!!siang perr!!best uhh mcm niie!!ley angon lmbt!!
itah:aru kol 740 seii!!jom uhh g mac!!*laughs*
me:kiweks!!740 ehk?saleha rch bishan at 740!!woah!slalunyer tym niie aku pat bus sial...*laughs*

kecoh giler luhh seii...
n when hanis went in the classroom...
"wow!!siang per niari ko!!"
thx ehk...i guess i cnnt rch sch early uhh...
aku kann cap dtg lmbt..hehe...
keas uhh..dat's all...tkd mood actualii...
weii org2 di luar yg lom try circle line,try uhh naek!!
haha!!takd beza ponn ngn train laen..hahahaha!!
n aku tak tau naper tu line dpgl circle line..hahahaha!!

anywae tt song ue sent to miie yesterdae is realii meaningful...
verii2...thx fer sharing...

anywae i will act as if my life is perfect from now onwards=))
aku sedih banget dgn evrytg tt happens..
n i cn't tke this any longer=(

greetings evrybody!
hees...din went sch todae..
plans to go out?not fer now..
not in the mood...
did chat with someone just now...
pdhal kiter bbl bender mepek tp i cried...wtf!?
aku da tak mampu nak buang airmata aku seii..
haiyo..tp i cn't stopit...
aku maseh ader hati kat dier seii..
grr...n2 aku nak upload lagu harapan..
nak dedicate to someone...per bdh..
aku tak tau mcmaner nakk bt..haha!
anywae,went to youtube just now...
n tere's a malaysia vid showing abt tudong malay gals..
malu uhh nakk ckp..
went wtchg the vid,it realii was embarrassing..
y must they do all these?
kann takk manis..
jager adat bkn stkt tutop dr ujong rmbt dr ujong kepaler seii..
lau nakk bt dosa mcm niie,tkya la nak step aek..
bka jekk aurat..
kdg2 kann mereka yg tk braper ttp aurat tu luhh yg lagy mulia..
dun get miie rong...
just because of this,sumer yg ttp aurat sumer kene...
hais...n dun look down on us hu din tutop aurat or wht..
kdg2 kann kiter yg mcm niie lagy mulia..
bkn aper uhh..tapii i pity those yg kene kutok disbbkn tt minority yg tk tau jager diri sendiri..
n the fucking thing is they dun mind their pix is being taken or sthg..
tkmo ckp psl niie uhh ehk..
pakaian n tutor kater n care ponn keneluhh jager jgk...
malu takk terkater..
walaupon kiter yg terbuka niie mmg lagy rbk..
lagy rbk dr drg..tapii kann malu lau kua stkt nak tnjk kann org yg dier ttp jekk..
tapii tutur kater ngn care nauzubillah..
i wun elaborate further...
i just dun feel right if ppl tinks tt yg terttp tu luhh yg aek sdgkann kiter yg terbuka sana sini
yg rabak..
open up ur eyes n heart ppl...
ue cn't just judge the book by its cover..
no offence peepos..
pada mereka yg teraser,kesiankn luhh yg laen yg takk berslh...
tapii keraner krg,mereka ponn dikutok samer...
at tyms im just mad at those hu tinks ppl like miie rof bad company..
noe us well,n ue wil noe hu's better..
n to those hu yg teraser kat saner it's tym to chnge...
insya'allah satu ari nnt ku ponn akn berubah..
bkn stkt dr pakaian..
bkn stkt nak tnk org aku ley ttp dr uong rmbt dr uong kepaler...
tp aku nakk biler aku berubah..
aku berubah sepenohnyer..
n fer now,im still miie..=))


Ouh yar...a fren of mine tell miie this yest..
"we r onlii bad as we drink,clubs n smokes..tt is y ppl owaes categorize us as the bad ones..
bt noe us well,we're not what they tink we r...
time will determine evrytg"
thx fren..i'll rmmbr wht ue sae..
i shouldn't have tot im soo bad...=))
chanchichiows peeps...

I really wants to beep ue..
i miss ue soo much...
tinking of ue send miie tears..
i regretted noeing ue...
fer i fall fer ue..
fer ue open up my heart..
n in the end,i have to back off..
it reallii hurts..
i dun wish to sae goodbye...
i dun wish us to end this wae but i noe i hav to face reality..
n reality fact is tt we r gg to our own different ways..
i love you still..
i miss ue soo much..
rmmbr how we noe each other?
rmmbr how we owaes look forward to chat with each other?
i cn't forget a sgl thing...
it realii hurts miie lots..
i wish i cn turn baq the tym..='(

todae wenta sch..soo early on tuesday..
cos fer a mth i owaes skipped sw but todae i din..wow!!
n evryone of my classmate congratulate miie..
thx ehk krg...setan tol..haha!!
n so spend the dae in sch...
n when otw to meet zura at cp,did talked with shima abt my bgr probs..
yess shima at tyms i just hope he will one dae later tink of my sacrifices...
my love is too deep..
n i need someone hu i realii2 tinks tt cn replce hym..
i did found someone..but............grr...
n shima..thx love fer all the advise...

let the pix do the toking abt my outing with itah n zura love last sundae...=))

if onlii how ue noe how i feel...
i wouldn't want to sae goodbye..='(
onlii tears will accompany now...
mark my words...
y must i go thru all these sufferings?
is there any reason tt i have to face all this?
y oh y must all this happen?
i dun wish to leave ue,i swear...
i dun wish to sae tt to ue..
but do ue noe how much im hurt?
do ue noe how hard it is for miie to sae tt?
ue noe sometimes love is rather hurtful..
my love to evryone have never been worthwhile...
erm..ue noe y i cn't leave hym?
sufferings have always been with miie fer 26 mths..
i owaes tot i found someone..
someone better..
but i guess i dun..
i tot of giving myself some tym..
but evrytg's just vanished..
ue just dunnoe how i feel..
till this verii second i still love ue...
dun tink by giving up,evrytg hav been washed awae just lyk tt..
i need time..
maeb a more longer tym='(
WELCOME MEMORIES!!
GOODBYE HOPES!!

*will be updating my outing with loved ones soon..=))

azura..ue have been a greta fren to miie..listen to all my grumbles n probs...ue r owaes tere with miie evrytym i need someone to tok to..ue r with miie thru my ups n dwns..we r a great leasbian,aren't we?hees...n we will owae sbe aites...thx fer evrytg darls...ily lots!ue noe evrytg tt happen in my life n uee still listen to miie despite of my 'stubbornness'..


babe..ue have been a great fren to miie to...ue were oso tere whenever i have a bgr prob..we too shared lots of stuffs...gerl..im owaes tere fer ue...but i cann onlii advise ue onlii..kiter samer2 advise each other n jadi degil ehk...haha!!tkmo sad2 oryt?kiter kann ader...hees!smile babe..n thnk ue=))ily babe!

itah ue have been a great gf too..we too shared lots of stuffs?ue noe y she's a great fren?she owaes guide us thru the right path...she is a great peer...if ue have her as a fre,ue shuld owaes treasure her...ily babe!thnk ue!

yeah n my last n reatrded gf,Shasha...she is a great n strong person..she have endure all her dwns in her lyf..bt despite all this,she manage to laugh n smile..she acted as if nuting happens...n2 i cn't mit her!ue noe y?cos we r full of craps!but tanpa mu,sepi outing kiter..haha!!takk uhh..sbb seme mcm giler..hees...stae stng babe!ily!thx fer evrytg too..

niie org aku tk akn luper!hehe...ayil!!!ku da lamer tk cntct ko kann..tp ku tak luperkann ko tau..hees..aner tak nyer...ue r owaes tere with miie too..ayil...the onlii guy fren hum hav been by my side...but i dunnoe since when,we dun realii cntct each other...tp rindu oii...nak try tok not cntct hym tapii i guess i cn't...grr...ayil da mcm abg aku seii...hees...the fact tt we shares lots of similarities makes us close i gues...n2 we hav nr been serious..even if he said serious thing,i wun believe..tym to get serious!n thx fer evrytg bro!!=))a great bro i have..i realii do appreciate ue...

n to all the six of ue!thnk ue fer evrytg ue al hav done..ue guys have been great to miie...i dun noe how it will b if i ever lost 1 of ue..n wish ue all luck in ur life...stae happy n smiles=))rmmbr sthg,ue guys r owaes close to my heart n wil owaes do...all ur good deeds will nvr be forgotten=))

lots of love,
kechiq=))

heylo2 peepos..
todae ehk?erm..actuali i did kicked the dae off quite badly..
realii feel like sobbing...
ue noe evrytym i went online or sthg,i owaes hope tt i cn cntct hym or wht uhh...
i dun even noe whether it's a lie or not...
once he did,it's more than enuf..i cn take this no more..
when i online this morning,i cn't believe my eyes reading sthg..
n tt is when it strikes miie to forget hym..
tried to pm hym but i dunnoe y till now..
then text hym up nit ti cntct miie again..
erm..ue nak tau sthg...??
niie have nutg to do with ue nt cntctg miie n stuffs...
tp i guess tt sthg is not ryt...n i dun wish to take the risk of hurting myself further..
ily soo much='(
n i thnk ue fer evrytg ue did..
n hell yeah,i dun wish to tell ue dat but i have to..
if ue reading this,im hoping ue undrstnd tt this has nuting to do with ue nt cntcting miie..
imy soo much but i undrstnd tt ue're tired n stuffs...
but2 just sthg...
n *whoosh*...i dun feel lyk sobbing again altho i did it again..
but realii my phone is owaes switched on fer ue to cntct=))
n daes went by so dull..
so the mendak..
heard stories abt double o yest...
so verii the fun..
i want to go!!
one dae i wil n not underage party..lagy lamer sak leha..!!
grr..
haha...this is wht happen when im stressed..
try gg,it realii destress..but ue will need to take the risk of addiction..
muahaha!!
keas peepos...gtg...wil update again!!=))

Happy Birthday zura...ue r finally 18!!legal age!!haha..love ue so verii the much...=))

todae start the dae off with school...muahaha!!!
then go bugis with mirah...want find fer her clothes fer her date...
we walk2,tok2 n laugh2...
haha..mirah laugh at evrytg tt i said...
we went ljs first...
eat2 then smoke2...
then go bugis street,search fer her clothes n jobs too...
walk2 fer i dunnoe how long...
still hvn't find yet..
then walk2 again...
aku tk tau braper byk kaly kiter tawaf skaly si pandai niie g kedai yg kiter da pass beribu kali..
haha..bedek sakk beribu..
muahaha..
then2,find her top,,then go round2 again...
this tym round search fer jobs...
steal al those cntcts tt need part timers..
then walk2 again ask those shops which needs part timer..
n mirah dun wan ask..
so this crazy fella hav to ask..
so hyper todae..dunnoe y..
kip making her laugh2...
then b4 gg home,go smoke again...
vending machine infrnt..
buy drink then cm baq to wer we sit..
drain so big yet cn't see...
so wht do ue expect??
i fell luhh!!muahaha...
mirah laughed but she more the stupid...
bought drink,dunnoe how to take the drink..
stupid2...haha...
mak kater laen kaly jgn ketawer kann org pndi...
then home...
eh no2...mit zura love at cp..
she wan go double o...
I WAN GO!!but scared...umo tak lps cb!!!
haha..nvm..slowly2...
my tym will cme...
then she go off...then i go home luhh stupid!!!
haha...i guess this is the craziest post i ever had...
so ppl njoy!!
chiows!!
this is wht happen when im crazy..
mirah..when ue read this post dun laugh2..haha..!!

n to ue both...i dunnoe wht im feeling abt ue guys...
grr...feel like my feelings r being fooled...
but im used to it..
missg ue...

heyloo peepos!!hehe...
someone have oready complained to miie abt nt updating my blog..hees...
right...actualii hv been waiting fer sthg before i update...
but nvm,wil upload it later...
erm...

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first n foremost i would like to announce tt SALEHA WENT TO SCH EVRYDAE FER THE WHOLE WEEK!!*clap!clap!*...=))
hees...as such end sch at 12 but went to accompany my dears fer a smoke break till 1...
waited fer itah too since she's gg baq to my crib first before proceeding to chalet...
n so,rch home at 2plus...n dammit!!i've to rch tere at 4..grr..
but hu cares...
surprisingly our journey takes onlii 30 mins...
huhuhu!!n iqah,ue said 4 but ue rch at 3..haha...
we're not late..phew...but since we r waiting fer our dear sha,we r slightly late...
hehe...took the key frm my uncle n off to our chalet..
woah!!feel so great as m the first one to check in the chalet with my gfs..
haha!!
we tot of doing a surprise b'dae surprise fer zura..haha...
luckily enuf she's cuming late..
in btwn of the tym,ayil came to take the water cooler...
but he managed to sleep fer a while..hees...
the send the cooler n baq to our chalet...haha...
tt was when our b;dae surprise fer zura started...
told my dear zura to cal miie up once she rch pasir ris but she called miie up when she's oready at our chalet block.haha...
so wht do ue expect...
sumer da mcm binatang terlepas dr kandang.
n ayil n aiman r prepared to bash hr upwith the pillows..
once she enter,BOOM!!tt is when the foght started...
haha..realii funy...aiman backoff n it is left with zura n ayil...haha...
vid will up soon...
n2 tk psl2 aku pon kene...pntt btol...grr...
after cuttig the cake n stuffs,ayil left n the tere was aothe war...
grr..n ts tym round im the one hu kene bashed...thx ehk gfs...
haha!!but tey left at 7..while miie zura proceed to simei...
then baq to chalet n linsih,biz n debab came...
watch i dunnoe wht's the title..
n wtf!?..the movie is so the open...
n the guys njoy it totally..
then wenta their chalet after the movie ends...haha...spend the night tere..hees=))


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strt the dae off with hakim n ayil making noise at 8 in the morning...grr...
n it's at my chalet...thnx seii...
tey do it to wake evryone up..but one did..
haha!!pdn muker krg...
told biz n debab to move to their chalet...but tey didn't..hehe..
tey cnnt sleep tere due to the noise..
tey onlii make a move at abt 12 pm..
haha...went to simei again fer the 2nd tym..haha..
alone ts tym round.
baq to chalet n clear up stuffs b4 my aunt rch at 4...
then mom rch n strt bbq immediately...
so the heaven...been waiting fer all the food...
n2 ouh yar..shima came with her daughter...
grr...soo cute...kiss her till she cried...she came fer my fam chalet too..
hees...
n ayil n debab too..altho tey came fer a while..
actualii tey dun want to but fam members kip askg abt them n tey cook xtra meals fer them..
tey felt guilty over it especially debab...hees...
he came talked to my parents n stuff n wet fer the bbq...
i went too..
haha...tot of sleeping over at their chalet bt was not allowed..damn!!miss the fun!!

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woke up at abt 8am...washup n tot og gg baq home with boon lay peepos since my fam check out in the aftann..
as such,went to their chalet,took my cooler...
tkes quite some tym to check out ouhkeas.
haha!!kecoh2!!
then GOODBYE CHALET!
before gg home,we maage to have our sort of breakfast at bk then arcade...
right in the middle of it,terserempak my uncle n daddy...
n guess what debab tot tey r my frens n tt i gave my num to them..
so wht do ue expect kiter gado uhh...
ku blur sbb setau aku tk umper kw lelaki aku sial..
haha...sedih seii biler dier bt mcm niie..
have a good tok with 1 of his fren abt us...
i cried seii...tk sangke i tmpt dier bls dendam..
lyk what shit sial?first gal to be maki n stuffs..
last words frm them all,his fren,'ct is it worth it?tink it over gal'
n yes till now im still tinking...

n2...
i miss that someone soo much..=(
i feel tt sthg is rong sumwer...
grr....ue,,i miss ue soo verii the much!!

It is realii sux to wake up early in the morning when it's raining...
hehe...m i right?
i guess it applies to all too right?
right...now m listening to BIDADARI HATIKU...
so in love with this song...
evrytym i listen to this song,it owaes reminds miie of someone..
altho he din sing this song,but i feel like he's the one hu is singing..
hehe...so the merepek...but hope to listen to him singing this song one dae later..
hehe...n2 i keep hearing him callg miie syg...god!!wth!!??
yest tok was rather awful...ue noe tt im hurt listening to evrytg which im not supposed to...
im on the verge of tears but i did cntrl myself...hais...
im not suppose to feel so ouhk??
hehe...=))should be happy fer evrytg...grr..im soo gg to make myself hurt over n over again to forget hym...
sobs...but then it hurts miie more when he called miie one word tt is not meant fer miie...
uurghx!altho i smiled over the phone(crazy),im still hurt tinking abt the fact..
anywae,daes past by realii fast..
haha!!!
can't wait fer tml i swear...CHALET N GFS HERE I COME!!
hehe..im soo gg to release my stress..im not over hym...
n to bf,he has been treating miie ouhk luhh...
but still vulgarities r still being poured to miie..=(
realii i dunnoe how i shud feel now..
ouh yar...wenta cp with mom n aunt to buy aunt's b'dae pressie..
hees...n when otw hm mom keep toking abt bf...
she keeps reminding miie to tc of myself..
as she saw our pix in my wallet(ku luper luhh seii nak bwk wallet kua smlm so dier bongka uh)
anywae she did apologised...
N SHE"S NOT MAD but reminds miie to be careful..
sbb tu gmbr dier pelok aku...chicken betol!!haha..
uurghx..i realii feel like crying upon listening over this..
i sun even noe whether we'll be together till the end..
mom told miie to find someone hu wil bring miie to the right path...
him??he did his best,i swear...i mean it's all up to miie..
im soo confused n hurt over our convo...
ue realii dunnoe how i felt...n i have no choice but to tell ue tt im gg to sleep..
cos i cn't bear to listen further=(..im soriie..
im not supposed to feel this wae,realii..=))

SOO THE MOODY!!
im not sure the reason im moody...
it just comes out of a sudden..grr...
i hate this...maeb just a normal mood swing...
n n n my head is spinning!!uurghx!!
tis is soo bad seii..
n todae was supposed to start school at 8 but skipped 1st class...
which is SW...what's the use of me cuming to school when attendance will not be taken?
ue noe y?BCOS I HAVE NOT YET BOUGHT MY SW TSHIRT..hurhur...
haha...so yeah came fer my 2nd class onwards..
hehe..
at least i did turn up oryt??
haha...
ouhk2...
i've been MISSING someone lately..=(..if onlii he noes tt i do...hais...


Countdown-3 more daes tp my bloody chalet!!haha!!=))

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great!!a SATURDAY i didn't go out...not even anywhere...believe it or not,im at home on 090509 24/7...hees!really no intention to go out on tt particular dae due to mother's dae n adik's birthday but i got the rong dae fer mother's dae...it is supposed to b 100509 dammit...haha!!but hu cares...bought mom n bro a cake..just a teeny weeny cake...haha..tt was being shared my us four...mom,dad,bro n miie...altho it's just a cake,mom n bro realii do appreciate it especially mom...was soo happy to see her smiling widely...
Sorry mom n bro...i onlii manage to buy ue both a cake...love ue both luhh..hehe




To mom.
A Happy mother's dae...ue have been a great mom...enduring both our nonsense plus2 dad's too..Ue have put us first fer evrytg...ue put aside al ur needs fer us...ue sacrifices evrytg just fer us family...sometimes looking at ue sacrificing things fer us realli touches my heart...ue reallii have undergone all the stress be it financially or emotionally with our family patiently...ue endure evrytg...there's nothing tt i should sae but THANK YOU SOO MUCH IBU FER EVRYTING UE HAD DONE FER US!!WE LOVE UE ALOT!


n to my dear bro
Happy 13th birthday to ue...pls3 dun be naughty,listen to mom n dad...study realii3 hard...dun disappoint ibu n ayah like how i did...ue r the only son in this family...im sure ibu n ayah wahts ue to be a great leader in the future..n me too...n dun make ibu n ayah mad at ue...if ue r nice to them,they will too...rmmbr what ibu said in the msg??i wish ue would be a great bro n son to this family...=))we love ue adik soo verii the much...

*grr...feel like tearing after typing this..hehe..saleha..dun be soo emotional...haha!!*




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1 of the other weekend i din go out with frens..haha!!but did went out with aunt,uncle n bro to cp fer a while...the intention was to buy adik birthday present...n realii we did...adik forced me to follow ouhk?or else i dun tink i'll follow...anywae,im rotting too at home..so,i'd rather follow..
n yes we did bought his birthday presents...uncle bought hym a converse shoe fer $109 n adidas t-shirt fer $40!!wth!?he got a realii expensive gift from onlii 1 person..damn hym man!furthermore uncle did bought hym a soccer boot previously(RECENTLY TOO) fer $70 which he can't wear cos it's small...n now wth!?another expensive gift??grr....he's soo lucky i swear...anywae,dat's it fer the weekend...

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What do ue expect me to go on monday?SCHOOL!damn!school starts at 10 n yet im late...haha..hu bloody cares...at least i did turn up fer it..wakaka!ouh yar...woke up at 3am just now n check on my phone but there isn't any calls=(..sedih kaper...been waking up at 3 or 4 lately...err..m i missing somebody??aarghx!!!no!!please say no!!tsk....im trying to forget hym!!!no3!!='(..but2 i want hym to cal..i miss hym...wth!?as i've said to itah love when otw hm just now,im trying to concentrate onlii on my dear debab...cos there is no bloody wae will my love fer tht someone will be returned...it's a one-sided love=(..but im still lovg hym..grr...right..dun wish too be emo again=))..N DEBAB DID CALLED JUST NOW!!!WEE!!!hopefully it's not temporary again..it owaes is ouhk??hehe..

THNX NAJIB FER EVRYTG UE HAVE DONE,,I'VE SUFFERED ENUF..N UE R GG TO MAKE MIIE HURT MORE...ANYWAE,IM SORIIE...

a tag posted by mydear gf iqah..grr...

iqah:itah&leha,korang g tgk la dua orang eh. org giler je tgk crite antu ngn leha!. haha. i duwana watch again,scared!

pntt btol uhh niie pmpn...haha...
i dun care...ue told miie jgn tego is not verii scary ryt?
except fer the sound...haha!
y the hell did ue say tt onii crazy person will watch this typ of movie with miie?
haha!hey...ko tau kann...lau tgk criter seram ngn aku cnfrm takk seram nyer...
hahahaha!!i noe,ue noe,public noe...
haha!!!right..n we have to watch with sha so tt it'll be more 'scarier'
haha...scarier tu aper word english sakk?
muahaha!!
anywae miss gfs soo verii the much..

i was totally disappointed upon hearing all tt...
realii2 my love fer both is just one-sided...
god!wht is happening?sobs...
i look realii fine m i?
hehe...I DID IT!
tell ue before ryt?pretending is the best thing to do..*winks*

grr...i m down with a terrible headache...
*head spinning3*
as such din turn up fer sch...
haha...woke up a lil bit late todae...
hees...
but m bored,i swear...
so,open up my fridge..look fer sumting to eat...
but saw fishballs...haha!!
as im bored,i cooked tom yum..
WOAH!believe it or not,I COOKED...
gfs..if ue reading this post,i cokked babes...
haha!!especially IQAH..
im sure ue will laugh...aku masak luhh seii..
haha,,takk sedap seii..haiyo...
afraid to allow my fam members to eat but hu cares..
need a comment..hehe...
later gg hg fer a while with zura..
to thread her eyebrow..
i need one too..uurghx....
ouhk2...will update soon aye??
anywae2,I MISS MY GUY FREN SOO MUCH!!=(
dammit!n@ ESPECIALLY MY GFS TOO!

herlow...
been soo emotional these daes..haha!
but cn't deny i still do..hees...

right..i swear today was totally sux...
hees...my dear zura was confident when telling miie tt class starts at 1 todae...
n as usual,i took my tym...wake up quite on tym...have my breakfast when
zura called telling miie tt class strts at 12...
wth!!?it's mrs tahir class..if im late even for 5 minutes,i've to serve detention..
n i swear i dun like detention...
aku da sui2 sak kirekan tym..haha!kononyer nakk on tym uhh kann..
but too bad im late..
so i went to ironed my uniform n out..
no choice but to take 163 to toa payo n cab to sch...
lucky thing im not late ouhk...
waste my money on this bloody cab fare...
grr...dun feel like coming to school actually but pity dear zura n anywae my attendance can be bad too..
haha
overall fun huh...
at least in school i can destress...with all the laughters tt i had...haha..
but still the sight of them is still in my mind...
oh god!pls put them awae..awae from my mind...n i mean awae!!
ue noe what?he just dun love miie n never like miie before..dat's it...
grr....haha!!dun wish too be emotional again...
anywae,did a trial on telephone skills..
it realii makes miie laugh..
how can you talk to a customer by reconfirming their last ic number initial as D for DONKEY?
isn't it rude?we should use country to represent the letter..
haha...anywae it's done...hehe...not a test so who cares...
n then home with itah...
talked to her abt debab n hym...
tell her abt evrytg tt had happened..
so sweet of her tt she can still noe dat i still love tt 'hym'..
anywae love,he wouldn't be mine at all..
he have never had any feelings on miie..
sad right...uurghx...hehe..
oryt...dat's it peepos...
will update abt somethng else soon..
chanchichiow...

ue said ue tt ue n her r just frens..but we wun noe what will happen 1 dae later..i noe the fact tt ue love her soo much..hehe...ue mrh miie when i toked abt her but isn't it the fact?irritating kann?tapii nakk bt aper...at least irritating takk saket ati...i miss my gf soo much='(..can i have hym baq?sobs....

there's 1001 reasons to this smile...ily n imy boii!



daes had been realii bad...
sometimes i dunnoe wht im doing...
i dun feel like living in this pretentious world...
pretending to be fine all the tym...
pretending im fine..totally fine...
i smiled n i laughed..
seriously there's nuting tt will help miie than pretending...
especially when love matters to miie most...
i tried to open my heart fer debab but i dun tink it works at all...
i woke up evry morning tearin g aver 2 peeps...
2 peeps i shouldn't matter in the world of love...
cos as fer now..now onlii 1 tt mkes my love one-sided...but both..
hina sgtkah kerr aku kat pndngn org?
salah kerr lau ku sygkann org....kdg2 biler pk alek,aku taknk syg saper2..
taknk ader perasaan pon..n at tyms,i feel lyk living in a world alone..
a world where tere is no1 at all..
i'd prefer to be lonely...
DO I DESERVE TO BE TREATED TIS WAE FER THE SINCERE LOVE?
M I SUPPOSE TO GET ALL THESE BULLSHITS EVRYTYM IM IN LOVE?
i wan to shed no more tears tt r soo meaningless..
thnx guys fer evrytg tt ue have done to miie..